if anyoneone has led a most unfortunate, deprived life, and happens to have never heard the song from which i took the lyrics in this post's title, i'd like to say i'm sorry, because have you been missing out! secondly, i'd like to strongly suggest that you listen to it right away, since it's my favorite song as of yesterday. it probably won't be tomorrow, but nonetheless, it's great. the band is called the flaming lips, and the song is 'do you realize?', which is, by far, my favorite song in their album, yoshimi battles the pink robots. yeah. c: (it's in my playlist on the homepage, for those who are interested.) 

in other news: today was the last day of school for me. hoorah for summer, hoorah for freedom! it didn't feel like the last day of school, and much less like summer break, since the sun was hardly out all week, and it's drizzled occassionally. still, i'm in no position to complain, so. i'll enjoy my few days of rest while i can, before it's off to swim camp. speaking of which, i still need to go on my hunt for a third swim suit, since one of my old ones has stretched out over the years and become too loose to use competitively.

i also have to wonder why this year, it seemed like no one was particularly bothered about the end of school, or excited for it. maybe everyone shared my thoughts, and didn't quite feel that end-of-the-year buzz, since the time seemed to just fly by. i find myself saying that at the end of every year, but this time, it's especially true: despite the endless nights of homework and essays, i can't help but feel that i was cheated (or relieved of, rather) out of at least a couple more months of work.

however, as soon as all of end-of-the-day squealing, hugging, and celebrating began, i realized that this was it, and that this was the end of yet another year of my education. it's upsetting for me to think about when i do, since i have a great appreciation for time, despite my lack of decent ways to use it. i realize that i'll never be able to go back into the first or third or fifth or seventh grades ever again in the singular life i'm entitled to, and that all i could have done can't be done anymore, and all i did can't be reversed. it sounds overly-dramatic and needlessly depressing, which it probably is. still, i can't shake the feeling that i'm not doing the best i can, and that my time is slipping out from under my feet. then again, it is.

on a happier note, i've solidified my schedule for next year, and i've gotten into all of my desired classes, which i should, since there's not pride in being at an 'honors' level when the work there isn't particularly challenging or difficult in any way. still, it's the best i can do for now, so it's what i'm sticking by. now, all that's left for me to cling to from the passing school year is my summer reading assignment, which i may actually be grateful for, despite my whining and complaining in class about it. i like the idea of having a task given to me and then striving to achieve it, since making my own choices about how to spend my time seems tedious and tiring.

youtube, though, is a great way to kill your whole day and waste hours on end! it keeps me awake until dangerous hours of the night, and keeps entertaining me without many breaks. one youtuber that i've found i enjoy in particular is shane dawson, who's not unknown in the least. in fact, i think he has about 250,000 subscribers, forgive me if i'm wrong. if you haven't heard of him, you should give him a peek, along with a few other people/teams i really enjoy a lot:

shane dawson (shanedawsontv/shanedawsontv2)

man in the box (manintheboxshow)

the elevator (elevatorshow)

fluffee (fluffeetalks)

oi, and a last note: remember never to eat edamame that's more than a few weeks old, because it starts to smell strange and gets a suspicious sticky residue on the outside. eweh.


so, it's been a few days since i've really done much with the site, but i'm posting now - which is more than i could have said for myself earlier. ;D not particularly much has went down since my last post, since my life does tend to be rather uneventful.

however, i was really excited about my first-ever pair of glasses, which were finally brought to me last thursday. i've needed them for about two years now, but better late than never, yeah? it was pretty amazing when i put them on, since i'd grown so used to everything being blurry; i can see individual leaves now, not just blobs of green. hoorah for 20 x 20 vision!
speaking of 20 x 20 vision, i feel like quite the idiot, since i have no idea what that really means, and i think everyone else does. i know that it's perfect, but what do the number stand for? is 19 x 19 more near-sighted, and 21 x 21 more far-sighted, or is that not even what they represent? i can't find my answer on google, since i'm horrible at wording my questions to find the appropriate results. so, until i get over that, i'm just going to have to wonder.

alsoo, i'm growing increasingly excited for the summer that's dauntingly close. just four more days of school to pull through, and i'm free! the year passed by extremely slowly and very quickly at the same time, but either way, i'm glad for it to be over. honestly, i need a break from everyone, and meet new people, which i'll definitely be doing a lot of. my summer's actually quite packed, and i only have about a week of time at home to hang out with my friends.
firstly, i'm leaving for a swim camp which will last for five days, which i'm the most anxious about; i'm on a swim team, and i have been since i was about six, but i'm worried about completely embarrassing myself. i'm not particularly slow or fast, but i'll be happy to keep up a steady medium, as long as i'm not on my first lap when everyone else is on their sixth. it's irrational, but i'm expecting a whole crew of michael phelps to be awaiting me there.

after that, i have the week at home, during which i'll probably be swimming more, since i live in the water during the summer. there's a local pool about three houses down from my own, so it's easy to gather a group of friends and go - however, tons of my least favorite people from school also find the majority of their time there, so it's unpleasant when personalities clash. still, i've grown pretty adept at ignoring them and enjoying myself.
then, my next three weeks will be spent at a nerd camp, which is what everyone there proudly calls it. introduction to biomedical sciences, whoo! i've been there two times already, in two different locations and with two different courses. both of them have left me extremely happy, so i have high expectations for this time, as well. c:

immediately after i get home, i leave for the poconos the next day. i've been going every summer for as many summers as i can remember, and it's one of the few vacations i get to spend with my cousin. i'm really happy about that, since we get along extremely well, and i find that we don't get to spend enough time together. still, i'm pretty damn disappointed that one of my good friends, alex, decided not to go. he's been complaining about hating the place for a while, so it's not surprising that he decided to stay home and go to cali instead. truthfully, i'm pretty jealous, since i haven't been to cali as of yet. i've heard it's amazing, though, and the pictures he took from last time he went were gorgeous.

andd, that is the finish of my overly elaborated-on summer vacation!

also (oh, boy), i'd like to share a song that i found was positively amazing, and really touched me. my dad had showed it to me a  few months back, and i was reminded of it when the z100 morning show crew (which i religiously follow every day) brought it up. it's not so much a song as a message, and it shouldn't be judged by the musical bit. there are a few videos i found of it, and i'm not sure which one is the original, but it doesn't really matter, so. here it is:

i personally took a lot away from that video, and think that lots of people who can't take it seriously are missing out on a bit. c:

also, as a sidenote: i'm getting really frustrated, since i can't seem to figure out which hole to plug my digital camera into. i've been using it for years, so i don't know what the sudden problem is, and i feel like i've lost several brain cells trying to figure it out. however, as soon as i figure this out, i'll be able to upload my photos from rome + florence, which i took about two whole months ago. oh, and how i wish i could go backk. europe is so far superior to america. the city was absolutely beautiful, and the train rides were among my favorite parts, because of all the sights. it was just like in the movies, with flowing hills and little cottages on the tips, with steam blowing out of the top. <3 (longest sidenote i've ever written, haha.)

until next time!

ooh, don't i just love these little blog posts! it's always so much fun to ramble on without someone there to contain me; unlike when i'm around real people, where i actually have to shut up at some point. what downers!

i'm not quite sure what i'm supposed to talk about at the moment, since my day's been mostly uneventful, except for the usual. some expected bickering, petty couple-calling (for lack of a real term to use or desire to find one), and the likes.

it's weird that my days don't usually vary much from that, but i still find something to ramble on about for paragraphs on end. i guess it's just my gift of being able to take something simple and drawing it out to something that's overly complicated and needlessly elaborate.

fortunately for you, i'm currently being extremely distracted by free (yes, free!) episodes of george lopez.

adios, until later! :)


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